sigh.
sorry lah i was sick yesterday and like was really damn tired after the australian exchange.


oh but the australian guys were super cute and hot lah :D
(not all though or else i probably would have died XD)

argh. die lah can't stand it liao.
stupid stupid stupid homework is like taking away all my time >_<

and i thought that the sickness would like give me time to finish my homework which like sort of happened -_____-



sometimes i really like being sick cuz it sort of makes me emo and then i get super motivated to do work o_O
and like i find that being sick sort of brings this very quiet and forlorn ahguan which people don't see

i'll like dream of very sad/romantic/random stuff that sort of does weird things like make me wake up crying which happens quite often if i'm sick over a period of time >_<

like next time you should totalleh ask me to tell you some of my dreams when i'm sick lah.

like some don't have a meaning but i feel like i'm closer to something/someone

andand falling sick does indeed show me who really cares about me. not that i feel YOU reading this doesn't care about me. it's just sometimes when i fall sick i feel like i really need to tell some people only. and some times it's the people closer to me, sometimes it's the people i only knew reccently, sometimes it's the people that have been distant for a while. i know as friends there is this part of you that is set out for friends like me as i have this large portion of me i dedicate to friends and family, so don't feel like less impt when i don't tell you i'm sick or anything >_< i'm just trying to say here that i don't really care whether you care about me, but as long as i know i DO care about you it's enough :D


mmm that was on emo post, wasn't it?
but seriously falling sick are like leaves when the plant is your whole life.
it wouldn't look complete without them and they push you forward and helps you to gain the needed energy to boost your journey in life to reach new heights and let the flower bloom with passion and fervour later in your life.

*i'm supposed to be doing my 书评 but who gives a damn right? XD*

maybe i'll need to catch up with work when i get well, but ohwells, without extra load i would have probably slacked my way through. falling sick really gets me thinking about the people around me and my life.

like it's so fragile but strong at the same time.

mmm ohwells time to finish up my homework >_<
so much for philosopher guan



hope that some people can really take a newer more optimistic perspective on life and not dwell on paths they have tripped over. that which does not kill you not only makes you stronger, it makes you more beautiful as well :D
so much for psychologist/psychiatrist guan



Nella fantasia io vedo un mondo giusto,
Lì tutti vivono in pace e in onestà.
Io sogno d'anime che sono sempre libere,
Come le nuvole che volano,
Pien d'umanità in fondo all'anima.

In my fantasy I see a world of justice,
where all people live in peace and honesty.
I dream of a world where souls will be always free
like floating clouds, everfree,
full of humanity,
within the deepest soul.

-Nella Fantasia
isn't it beautiful? (: