damnnn!



i'm drowning under work >_<>_<

well here goes nothing:

Friday, 20th June, 2037
11.42pm

What a tiring day. I had to conduct 3 consecutive lectures on disarming for the new recruits. Imagine repeating the same thing over and over again! But there was one outstanding recruit, Private Johnson. I have taken a liking to him, maybe I should ask him to entail into our department, but on to more important things. I knocked off at around 11 tonight, and on my way home I received this strange call from a certain Sterlin. He asked for a meeting the day after tomorrow at 2am. Should I go? It is rather disturbing that I received a call at this time of the year, what with the recent terrorist hijack of the fiber optic cables recently and the security electric fields on the airbase hacked through and the warhead parts stolen. I haven’t told anyone anything yet, but Sterlin does seem to know a lot about me and what I do. Let’s wait and play his game then. Let’s see what he wants. I just hope my family doesn’t get involved in this threat. I should report this case tomorrow to my colleagues of the National Bureau.


Saturday, 21st June, 2037
2.32pm

I fear for my life now. I was just having lunch at the cafeteria when I saw the news. Sterlin had acted. And he made sure I knew about it. He had bombed the public library right up my home 42 Pelrin street. Do I sense a hint of taunt by the way he used a bomb? Was he trying to imply that if I made the wrong choice tomorrow by not meeting him he would bomb more areas? Using bombs against a bomb specialist. What is his plan?
Who is Sterlin?
Most importantly, why me?
I had concealed my identity as a bomb specialist at the NMB as well as I could, how did he manage to profile me so well to know exactly what I did at the NMB?


Sunday, 22nd June, 2037
1.27am

For the safety of my family I have decided to meet up with Sterlin. I’m bringing you with me. You have been my sole security-blanket for the past years.


Sunday, 22nd June, 2037
3.00am

It’s them. I knew it. Terrorists have finally come recruiting. I’m not the first one. It started with the disappearance of top FBI forensics scientist Jennifer Horowitz after her secret xanax addiction was leaked to the media. It followed with other professionals that the National Bureau suspected were useful to the terrorists. Of course, we didn’t know that the terrorists were behind the disappearances, but it was an intelligent guess. Which proved right. Sterlin said he knew what I did, and he said that they needed me. And they knew about how my lawyer’s degree was forged. And they knew how I used to embezzle money from my law firm before I turned to the National Military Bureau. They said they were going to kill Vicky and Evinne. It wasn’t coincidence. They knew how Evinne is Vicky and my heart and soul. I have to leave.


Sunday, 22nd June, 2037
11.56pm

Evinne got sent to the hospital for juvenile rape. When I saw the state my darling was in the hospital, it was pure rage that I felt. Sterlin had tracked my daughter down, knew that she loved the dark alley shortcut which got her home 20 minutes early and judging by the cuts on her back, she knew her age, her birthday and her full name. the name that we called her but nobody else knew. This is not right. I finally understand how deep and dark the terrorists go to get us professionals to rub shoulders with them and join their ranks. It’s individual freedom that makes us so susceptible to these attacks. We’re becoming a socialist state, and with more freedom comes more danger. It’s the whole balancing equations thing: to increase something, one must sacrifice something of equal value, and in this case we’re talking about freedom versus security. Evinne has already been targeted, I need to protect Vicky. I have to leave and join them, despite how much I don’t want to.


Monday, 23rd June, 2037
10:02am

I just received an email from Sterlin. I have 7 days to prepare everything I have to do and to meet him. I must get myself ready, more emotionally than anything else.


Thursday 26th June, 2037
12:32am

It’s the third day already and I have come up with more lies than I had ever made since I was young. My only regret left is Vicky and Evinne, especially since Evinne is in the hospital now, and I can’t spend time with her. Vicky is strong and I believe in her, but Evinne is just a girl! There are a million things I want to tell them in the remaining days I have left with society, but I just can’t bring myself to say it. Not that I should.


Thursday 26th June, 2037
12:43am

I just received a call from Sterlin, which brings about another annoyingly disturbing fact. He told me “No communication with them or they die.” How did he know in the first place that I was just writing in you that I wanted to tell them I was leaving? He must have bugged this whole place. Most importantly I can’t tell Vicky nor Evinne that they are being watched and spied on! Someone save me from this madness…


Friday 27th June, 2037
11:12pm

I’ve been thinking these few days. Freedom is the root of all us professionals being put in imminent danger in the new future. The people want freedom, and the government gives it to them. Yet this freedom brings danger as in my case where the government no longer gives much of a damn on how we do things at home. The terrorists are undeniably smart, but evil will never win. Are you reading this, Sterlin? You will never win. I might join you, and so will others, but it won’t belong before the people sense the danger and slide along side with the government. It won’t be long till the people understand the need to protect their privacy and not to get exploited like I did. Evil never does win. I’ll be leaving this place 3 days in advance and stay in a motel till I go terrorist. The government should do something about this now. The people might not like it at first, but it might be too late if the people discover this danger themselves. Goodbye, Vicky. Goodbye, Evinne.

God bless both of you,
God bless me,
and
God bless America.




i know it's not a good job >_<
even i think so. >_< x2
damnnnnnn off to bed then :D